Thursday, 30 June 2016

A Thankful Letter

This is the last time ill be sending a message to you. A letter from my heart.. Hind ko na kailangang sabihin sayo at alam ng lahat kung gaano natin kamahal ang isa't isa. For a while you wanted me to give up my love for you pero ayoko dahil I was trying to be strong and I was holding on to that smallest love you said you had for me. I wanted to do everything for you to comeback and I did. I did everything I could and told you everything I needed to say kahit alam kong walang pagasa. Everyone knew how shattered and broken I was inside out but I was afraid and I couldnt accept everything you said and whats happening between us so I kept holding on and hurting myself even more.

Years ago I remember being hurt, asking and praying every single day to God to give me the last til I met you and believed.. I believed that it was you..
I don't, I can't and I won't hate you. You were my everything and you were my life. I still believe sa kasabihang "kung kayo, kayo" but now..

Ngayon, Im letting you go. I'm letting go of the 'paano', 'sana' and the remaining love I have for you.. Bibitawan na kita at kakalimutan kung kailangan.. I realized that I can't keep hurting myself and I shouldnt beg you or anyone else to stay in my life. I can't have someone who is happily going on with their lives knowing im hurt at sila ang dahilan. I deserve true love. I deserve to be happy and I deserve to be loved. Life goes on and I know I could do it without you.

Im very very very thankful sa lahat ng kaibigan na nakilala ko sayo.. true friends I must say(ofc friends parin kami).. You have a beautiful family and every single memory we had will be kept inside my heart. Thank you for loving me and making me truly happy.. I will remember you and ipinagmamalaki ko kung anong meron tayo noon but from now on.. Im letting you and my feelings go.


(I wanted to share this because all of us have gone through this or will in the future. Everybody hurts but not everyone survives.. its okay to be hurt and its okay to cry.. pero you have to be strong diba?)

I wish to look back on this in years time..
Moved on naba te?