Criselda's Tiara

Friday 28 October 2016

Dandelion

"Dandelions"

I remember saying Hi

curious and nervous if you'll reply

you sure did

and said hey with a smile

exchanging replies

everything went so quick

"then its set"

"Okay, I'll see you next week"

Met you earlier than expected

25 mins I waited

chilly

but a day til now I don't regret

Looking for each other

finally there you were

In a gray tee with your big ass brolly

but yeah, you were late

couldn't hide my smile

I said "Hi"

and oohh you smiled back

could you do it one more time?

The night came and you were still with me

still shy, but thats how some are first right?

Im sure it wasn't butterflies, dandelions I guess?

but what I felt then didn't matter much to me

Days and weeks passed, almost everyday

I enjoyed our small innocent talks

got to know your friends,

and met you more often than I should

I always anticipated to see you

when you ask me to wrap my arms to yours it was nice

and when you ask me to hold your hand were the best

I truly felt safe and genuinely happy with you

But somewhere in the middle

something happened and this wasn't on the plan

to me It didn't feel right or the same

slowly, I don't know how, the dandelions flew away

This time your smile seemed different to me

a smile that im scared of and always dreading to see

why do you ask?

I didn't know either, guess I was scared I'd fall in deeply

sure enough I did and told you how I felt

I thought then it was a bad idea

because you didn't felt the same

and that smile of yours, I blame

Looking back Im still glad it happened

walking into each others lives

I believe it was meant to be

you and I wasn't but knowing each other will always be

Dandelions flew but they were never gone

Im sure it wasn't love but infatuation

you remind me of them

soft, gentle and a good companion

But I guess its time to leave

with the same sweet smile that I first wore

but don't worry

I'll leave the dandelions for you to treasure

Cris

Thursday 30 June 2016

This is the last time ill be sending a message to you. A letter from my heart.. Hind ko na kailangang sabihin sayo at alam ng lahat kung gaano natin kamahal ang isa't isa. For a while you wanted me to give up my love for you pero ayoko dahil I was trying to be strong and I was holding on to that smallest love you said you had for me. I wanted to do everything for you to comeback and I did. I did everything I could and told you everything I needed to say kahit alam kong walang pagasa. Everyone knew how shattered and broken I was inside out but I was afraid and I couldnt accept everything you said and whats happening between us so I kept holding on and hurting myself even more.

Years ago I remember being hurt, asking and praying every single day to God to give me the last til I met you and believed.. I believed that it was you..
I don't, I can't and I won't hate you. You were my everything and you were my life. I still believe sa kasabihang "kung kayo, kayo" but now..

Ngayon, Im letting you go. I'm letting go of the 'paano', 'sana' and the remaining love I have for you.. Bibitawan na kita at kakalimutan kung kailangan.. I realized that I can't keep hurting myself and I shouldnt beg you or anyone else to stay in my life. I can't have someone who is happily going on with their lives knowing im hurt at sila ang dahilan. I deserve true love. I deserve to be happy and I deserve to be loved. Life goes on and I know I could do it without you.

Im very very very thankful sa lahat ng kaibigan na nakilala ko sayo.. true friends I must say(ofc friends parin kami).. You have a beautiful family and every single memory we had will be kept inside my heart. Thank you for loving me and making me truly happy.. I will remember you and ipinagmamalaki ko kung anong meron tayo noon but from now on.. Im letting you and my feelings go.

Dang

(I wanted to share this because all of us have gone through this or will in the future. Everybody hurts but not everyone survives.. its okay to be hurt and its okay to cry.. pero you have to be strong diba?)

I wish to look back on this in years time..
Moved on naba te?

Saturday 12 September 2015

Blog #9: How I met my boyfriend

I met my present boyfriend Summer2013 in a feast down in London. It was sooo cute cuz waaayy long before, when he didn't know me and I didn't know him, (I only see him in my friends fb, no im not a stalker-I promise :P) I liked looking at his pictures and thinking...
"nah, never gonna meet, never gonna happen".
and theen.. and THENNN!...

Summer time, it was so hot on that big-o field in London, I was with my friends laughing, having a good time, so many cute guys and girls, singles mingle and couples so cute.. while being so excited on which ride to go on next, there he was, skinny jeans, white tee and a matching sunglass, my friend introduced him to me thinking "who the hell"..
I was honestly wasn't on that fiesta to flirt or strut my stuff like most other.
(while I was too busy looking at the people having fun on that power surge and terminator)
He said hi, I said hi, we shook hands.. not much really.

Nearly end of the day, I thought of him thinking
"who was it again?.. ohh.. I should've introduced myself more"
and then.. and theNN....
the next day I was on the bus going back home (I did live quite far from London)..... while the guys started sending msgs on facebook, messaged me last thinking:
"oooooh you nasty playing hard to get sending me message after everyone did ha!)
...now that's how it is, after the party, the ones that 'liked' you will make a move.. somehow.. muahahaha!
.. im bad with playing hard to get but when I fall.. I fall hard, quite bad
Im truly one of the crazy-clingy-emotional-hug lover-type of girlfriend and I fall easily with someone that confesses- cute or not.
I've known him for 2 years and most of the things I like in a guy, he has.
A Joker
Happy go lucky
Modest
and most of all HE FEEDS ME WHATEVER I WANT <3
anywho....

He courted me for 3 months and finally said, fine. haha I meant yes (he might read this haha).
Hes never strict with me, makes me laugh and sends me roses, I remember him sending me flowers at a place where I used to work "oh my gaaaaad!"

and he sent me 21 white roses with a small cake written happy birthday on my 21st It was so sweet I think I shed a little tear then. Of course my dad then didn't agree and wasn't happy with anybody I had relationship with, I was a hopeless romantic and always failed with relationship, they would always hear me cry in my bedroom and having a fight over the phone with most of my exes which was probably the reason why he was like that and I do understand him. But with him, I was so confident, every so often I ring my parents how they're doing etc. Every time I would tell them something sweet that he did for me that day, yesterday or last week. I'd always give them hints that he does make me happy and never argue with me. I guess it worked and overtime, my father didn't comment whenever I talked about him like he did the first time I mentioned him,there was a few bad words came out, told him names and commented in one of our photos together in fb that he was ugly which his friends read and til now hes still teased by his friends which I do find funny.

Anyways.. we'll have our 2nd anniversary very soon and we'll celebrate it with my 23rd Birthday and i look forward for being 1 year older.. not really haha..

THE Feelings..

You should know everyone is not perfect and will never be, as they always say, when you look in the eyes of someone you love, the imperfection that everyone else sees is what makes him/her perfect. Whenever I look at him, without him doing anything, I would just smile, I feel happy when he's next to me, my day feels so much better whenever I hear his voice over the phone complaining how bad my day was.

Buuuut of course, its not always like this, we have our fare share when it comes to arguing specially over little things and what not. I wouldn't call it a fight but most of the times that we 'fought' was over something so little, the other day we were in friends house, upon waking up, he saw his phone next to me, he was immediately got up and got annoyed why do I have it and It wasn't charged, his friend came in asking us to eat breakfast and left me there.

(Here's what happened: I have this so called body alarm where I wake up 7am sharp everyday,
I woke up still sleepy so I looked around for a clock, there wasn't any and my phone was dead, saw his phone connected to ps4 but the power was off so his phone didn't charge throughout that night so I just took it charged my phone using my charger and put his phone next to me to keep eye on the time. ofcourse my phone was more important)

I know he didn't mean it but he slightly pushed me when he was trying to get up of course I got annoyed too, I just woke up and I was being blamed on something stupid and he was really angry!
anyways, my point is, as a couple like any other small things like this can be fixed but some people make these small things big and that's how some relationships get affected. These are normal, we would always have these 'small fights' but we don't let it get big, we give space and say sorry later.

We went in numerous trips with friends too - Isle of wight, Cornwall, Wales etc. We'd like to travel together in the future. For some reason, I don't attracted to anyone anymore even if he's the cutest one the room, I think of him and then boom! its like I was being pulled back to him by my heart and mind. haha. In the end, I really do hope he's the one. :)

So.. that was my long story im going to stop now. Haha.

Bye!

Wednesday 2 September 2015

Dove Pure Care Dry Oil Shampoo and Conditioner

Hi guys! So my boyfriend and I went out for lunch and saw Superdrugs having a saaale!
Its been quite a long time since I wanted to try Dove's Pure Care range, Im a little picky when it comes to my hair but I did heard good things about it so lets start!

I like how sleek the packaging is but the cap feels fragile like most drugstore shampoos.

Some people may not like the smell but I do! It's the smell that I want my hair to have forevaa.
You'll definitely smell the Macadamia Oil and maybe some other in the shampoo.
Conditioner however is the same but stronger smell, strong as a perfume almost. I like it!

Another thing I like about this is its not greasy at all as it claims, you know those other shampoo 'slime' that lingers on your back whilst rinsing your hair? nope nope nope! I'm so glad this doesn't!
My scalp is a bit sensitive too, that's why im picky with shampoos most of the time, they break me out and gives me dandruff!!! x( and this doesn't! so another plus+ ! My hair did felt softer and fluffier the next day!
so in conclusion, I am loving this product at the moment and will continue to use this til I find something better :)

Price wise, It was on sale for half price so I got for £2.97 each woohoo! <3

Shampoo: http://www.boots.com/en/Dove-Advanced-Hair-Series-Pure-Care-Dry-Oil-Shampoo-250ml_1498703/
Conditioner: http://www.boots.com/en/Dove-Advanced-Hair-Series-Pure-Care-Dry-Oil-Conditioner-250ml_1498705/

Thanks Guys, Hugs!~
**click pics to enlarge.

Tuesday 1 September 2015

Lancome Sourcils Eyebrow Gel and Rouge in Love Lipstick

Hi guys!
So the other day I went to Boots and bought some goodies! They have the promotion when you buy two products you get a free gift! I was there for good 30 mins deciding which lipstick I get, in the end, I went for the gel, typical haha.

The next photo shows the free gift, amazeballz!
The Blush was pretty good and pigmented
The Lipgloss is pretty and wearable for everyday

and the mascara, visionnaire and genifique are pretty popular, that's my excuse for buying! haha

(1st pic)This is how the Lipstick looks like worn, how pretty is that! <3 I've been wanting to buy the this looong time ago, It is in the higher end and it was freakin expensive.

(2nd pic)It claims to stay for 6 hours and I must say, It wasn't as pigminted as I first applied but this is when after eating, drinking etc, there's still colour in my lips, this is without reapplying by the way.

Price: £22.00

Colour: Rose Me, Rose Me Not! 375N

Claiming: High Potency Color

6h Wear

Featherlight

So Pretty! even the packaging <3

As for the Sourcils Gel, I believe this came out just recently. I love doing my brows, without it.... I can't... Anyways, I've never used eyebrow gel before I love my pencils don't get me wrong but I've always wanted to try it so yay! (another excuse haha)

Surprisingly, The all the colors from this line aside from the darkest one, they have shimmer in them, I was hesitant at first thinking why the heck would they make your eyebrows glittery?! I couldn't decide at first which one to get either the 03 or 04 so I tried the colors on each side of my brow. Its actually not noticeable at all and it glided smoothly! immediately I was hooked and picked the lighter one 03.